| "A winding, turning, wanting, strong, deep snog. A good kiss, a decent kiss.
I want one of those kisses you just melt into. You lose all consciousness, you're aware of sensations rather than matter. You know you are moving arms, legs, fingers...but you don't realize it, you're only aware of the other person's effects on you. That state where you're both aware of your entire body, yet only experiencing a holistic sense of feeling. Everything drops away, you're only connected to a world where your body connects to another person. And that world is of pure sensations. No thoughts, no insecurities, no regrets, no fear. Just feelings.
That's what I'm looking for, that's what I need to find again." That was from two years ago. TWO years ago. Where have my years gone? On the surface, college rushed by, but reflecting upon my experiences puts the four years into perspective. I've learned so much, and have changed. But in some ways, still very much the same. I hope that's integrity of self. Life, I'm scared, but ready. Time to dip my toe into the pool, and test some waters. |
